Right in that moment the rest of the world is a blur. There is only Elliot on his knees in front of me and he is asking me to marry him. He promised we would be together forever, and I have never really doubted his conviction. But there have been so many moments when I wondered if the shine had dulled. If the girl he fell in love with in Portland wasn’t buried under the weight of a life that seemed determined to kick her around. I don’t know if that girl even exists any more. The one who thought that the worst thing in her world was to be too pretty. I’m sure she doesn’t because I am not sure I would like her if I met her on the street.